Hi there, Jules…
I am no different than you. We all have our struggles, doubts, doubts about what the next move is. Doubts about whether or not we are making the “right” decision that will move us into a direction that creates the life we want. What does that look like? Why am I so indecisive? Paralyzed that I may make the wrong decision and I will end up worse off… so I stay stuck.
I get it. I know that feeling. I’ve been there. For me, I did what I thought people would want, but it wasn’t what I wanted for myself. It was easier for people to make decisions for me, but then I had to live with those circumstances. I couldn’t blame them for whatever was to come. Didn’t I make the “decision” to allow them to make the choice for me?
I realized that if I want something then I have to take action. This was my life, but now what? It is a little scary that you get to be responsible for your own outcomes, but isn’t that what life is all about. One big playground of learning?
Are you ready to play? Play big? Let me help you find out what is blocking you that is preventing you from playing.
That is a picture of me in Peru, September 2021, at the Sacsayhuaman sacred site in Cusco. Talking about playing big. I had to make the decision and speak about what it was that I wanted…and I still am.
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In 1997 I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, later confirmed by an MRI of my brain, along with a 2nd opinion. The diagnosis was delivered in such a “doom & gloom” message telling me about how I was going to be feeling. “You will experience extreme fatigue and be able to only work part-time. Most likely have trouble walking and maybe end up in a wheelchair.“ “What?, but I am getting ready to graduate college.” was my thought bubble. Another thought was that I don’t feel like that. Yes, I had some dragging of my left foot, but wheelchair??? Nothing was positive about the message.
My dream was to backpack around Europe after graduation, but with this diagnosis hanging over my head, I needed to play it safe. Make sure I had health insurance in case, no, not in case, but when I was going to be disabled. Gut punch!
Ever since I can remember I always played it
safe. Even before the diagnosis. I like feeling safe. Safety of a job. A job that would provide me with the benefits for when I would be disabled. Talk about depressing.
I tried to be strong and stoic through the whole process, but I knew I had MS based on symptoms that I had been experiencing since I was 17/18 years old. Let’s just say I didn’t lead the healthiest lifestyle. For example, I was voted “Life of the Party” by my fellow seniors for the Senior Hall of Fame of my high school.
Fast-forward now, I have been gravitating to jobs that had good benefits, working in “Big Corporate America”. From banking to mortgage to big pharma to labs….What I realized is that I like my independence. I like being my own boss. I like helping others. Sure there is a little bit of that in all those capacities, but nothing I was able to have first-hand experience at. Maybe I didn’t punch a timecard, but there were other ways to track
my working hours.
Enough is enough and COVID showed me that! During the start of 2020, I enrolled in a course at Intuitive Mind (intuitivemind.org) led by teacher extraordinaire, Nancy Rebecca. A leading expert in her field.
I’ve always been drawn to spirituality, the occult, magic, all things that most people would classify as weird - that’s me!!! I really embraced her training as it was very much relatable to me and very grounded in reality. I was seeking answers to my life that I didn’t know I had questions about. That was part of one of many blocks that were dissolved. I just knew there had to be more to this life; to my life. Have you felt that way?
Now I know there is more, and I am delighted to share with you the skills and gifts that I’ve learned, to unblock those questions and their accompanying answers, and bring you to a new self-awareness.